화요일 아침: god's an abba fan. he's always singin' a certain abba tune. which 1 is it? "dancing queen"? "s.o.s."? "fernando"? "lay all your love on me"? yah, maybe that 1, since he does appreciate ur praise. well, i the tune i heard him singin' n' hummin's "take a chanc on me." "if you change your mind, i'm the first in line. honey, i'm still free. take a chance on me." yah, god wants u to take a chance on him. he doesn't care if u'r currently in love w/ other things, things'f the world like $$$, status, fame, earthly pleasures... i mean, he'd rather u not... but he'll 4give u if u ask n' loves u nonetheless n' would like ur love in return. i mean, he'll 4give u, if u ask, 4 leaving him, waiting in line, 4 putting him 2nd. u just gotta ask. "take a chance on me." i'm been hearing that it's sometimes necessary to put what u've got on the line 4 god's cause, 4 his purpose, 4 his glory. sometimes, u'r called to throw in ur time, maybe ur $$$, maybe ur status, maybe other resources. the thing i guess i realise that i need to put it on the line cos god wants me to n' cos it's not mine to begin w/ but his. i'm only a stewrard'f what he's given me, n' he wants me to put it on the line. in a way, it's like being the banker, not the investor. it's like god's told me that my job's to invest his $$$. what've u got to lose?! teknically, u've got nuthin' to lose cos what u'r investing isn't urs to begin w/. rather, it's god's. n' in some cases, does he mind if u invest n' end up losing some or all'f it? well, 1st off what u've got('f his) to lose, in the big pic isn't a whole lot, so he doesn't mind if u lose it as long as u tried to invest it well. u've the potential to earn much 4 god; but if u lose it, while trying earnestly to gain 'lot 4 him, maybe he'll say, "aw, no biggie, man. it's just chump change to me." even if u give a whole lot, even if u give ur whole life... in a way, it's chump change, compared to what god's given u thru jesus. it's almost parodixical: u're very important to god; yet also very insignificant in the big pic; both @ 1nce. "take a chance on me." 1 thing i say 'bout spirituality in gen'l's this: @ the very least, it's like ur in a casino w/ a bunch'f chips. u've gotta put ur chips somewhere. u can't win if u don't play. in that sense, i think atheism's the most foolish religion. "if you need me, let me know gonna be around, if you've got no place to go, if you're feeling down. if you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown; honey, i'm still free, take a chance on me." there's a god that who loves u n' cares 4 u. take a chance on him.
the beautiful kaela hwang
still @ her parents' house. she told me that on sat, her parents took her to l.a. koreatown 4 this 장터 jangtuh festival: http://www.lakoreanfestival.com/. she told me 'bout the 진돗개 강아지 jindotgae kangaji (jindo puppies) that she saw 4 sale there.
this morn, i didn't hit up the sunnyvale skate park. thus, in a way, this morn "sucked." 'member: i have 2 kinds'f morns: 1s when i hit up the sunnyvale skate park n' bad 1s. i stayed up 2 late last nite; that's the prob. *sigh* i stayed up 2 late, n' i didn't even get important stuff done! :-( in a way, man; i'm burnt out. i've got lot to do. [later] as i was tellin' our friend roland in an e.mail just now; 4 some reason i typically believe that when kaela skips town like this, i'll magically have more free time. yah, in a way it makes sense. like, i don't have to do as much housewerk cos it's just 1 person making a mess, not 2. also, i guess i don't spend time doing things like giving kaela massages when she gets home, etc. however, geez... my days r sooo full'f just whate'er stuff these days! church stuff (t3 light n' couples unstoppable event), taekwondo (prakticing n' teaching), djing... man! bizzy! hwoever, i know that no 1's impressed w/ how bizzy i am... except me... if i'm even impressed. i dunno, am i impressed? *shrug* i dunno, man. i worry that i'm spreading myself 2 thin. in hi skool, my mom sed i was spreading myself 2 thin by being an officer/leader 4 so many clubs n' groups. it's scary; but, altho' i managed to trim back the nombre'f aktivities while i was in college, i worry that i'm letting the tree branches grow wildly 'gain. i trimmed the potato trees this past wknd. if i don't trim them on a regular basis, when i get 'round to trimming them, they look miserable... cos the flowers n' leaves only grow on the outside. when i trim/prune infrequently, i end up havin' to cut off all the leaves n' flowers. i gotta be careful. however, i also think 'lot 'bout how they say that 20%'f the church carries the burden, while 80% just enjoys a free ride.
[later] 오후: i went home 4 lunch 2day. u c, last nite, after sach's 7:30p turbo kick box (tkb) class @ the east arques 24 hour fitness, i came home n' cooked some 볶음빱 bokkeumbap; or, more specifically, a dish i like to call spicy. i ate some leftovers'f that 4 lunch 2day.
on fri (last fri), kaela rented a korean movie from hana dvd: 데이티 daisy. she tried to watch it all on fri nite. me, i was 2 tired to watch it. she fell asleep b4 the ending. i started watching it on sun nite (late). i couldn't finish. i finished it last nite. it's not a boring movie; we just live tiring lives. it stars 전지현 juhn jihyun (jun jihyun)'f 엽기적인 그녀 yuhbgijuhkin geunyuh (my sassy girl) fame. i've gotta 'member to return that dvd 2day on my way out to taekwondo praktice.
on fri nite, we had our 1st mtg'f grx's new t3 light couples small group bible study. we've been planning this over the summer. it was a good mtg / bible study session, a larger turnout than we'd expekted. 4 dinner on fri nite, b4 heading over to the bible study, kaela n' i ate some 김밥, 생선전, 순대 (gimbap, saengsuhnjuhn, n' soondae), which i'd bought from 한국 마켓 hangook market on my way home from werk.
on sun(day), i didn't go to the sunnyvale skate park, which is a bad thing. i went to church tho', which is a good thing. i spent 'lot'f time there, just hangin' out @ the small group fair. i ate lunch w/ duk @ 조선면옥 josuhnmyuhnok. we brought sooni n' tied her out outside. 4 dinner (late dinner), i met up w/ my mom. she wanted to meet @ a tanto japanese restaurant on saratoga ave. i think it's gone. we couldn't find it. we ended up @ tomi sushi on saratoga ave in the mitsuwa market plaza. it was pretty standard japanese sushi but definitely good quality. i ate quite a bit. it was nice to converse w/ my mom. wow, i guess i saw both my parents this wknd.