¿ù¿äÀÏ ¾Æħ: do u guys know the christian author max lucado?   a long time 'go, our ol' church gave me a copy of his book when god whispers your name as a graduation present from grad skool.   honestly, i hadn't gotten 'round to reading it.   however, yesterday, while i was waiting 4 nelson @ valley fair, i went into borders express n' decided to check out their limited selektion'f religious books, their christian books in particular.   max lucado's li'l book it's not about me caught my eye because the li'l hardcover book looked invitingly short, not some verbose beast that'd throw me into slumber.   i flipped thru it's not about me n' found it interesting.   however, yah, i guess i already have max lucado's when god whispers your name, so i'll try to read it now.   neway, cos i saw max's book, i went to his website http://www.maxlucado.com.   i read his piece 'bout god n' war, which he apparently wrote in 2003 when dubyah's ridiculous war on iraq began.   well, altho' i was disappointed to find his writing to be all 2 much in the typikal "i'm a christian conservative n' thus must support the republikan president (altho' i never supported demokratik clinton)" style, i'm open.minded n' objektive 'nuff to find wisdom in it nonetheless.   in this piece, max quotes c.s. lewis:

"does loving your enemy mean not punishing him?   no, for loving myself does not mean that i ought not to subject myself to punishment - even death.   if you had committed a murder, the right christian thing to do would be to give yourself up to the police and be hanged.   it is, therefore, in my opinion, perfectly right for a christian judge to sentence a man to death or a christian soldier to kill an enemy.   i always have thought so, ever since i became a christian, and long before the war, and i still think so now that we are at peace.   it is no good quoting 'thou shalt not kill.'   there are two greek words: the ordinary word to kill and the word to murder.   and when christ quotes that commandment he uses the murder one in all three accounts, matthew, mark, and luke.   and i am told there is the same distinction in hebrew.   all killing is not murder any more than all sexual intercourse is adultery. &bnsp; when soldiers came to st. john the baptist asking what to do, he never remotely suggested that they ought to leave the army: nor did christ when he met a roman sergeant-major - what they called a centurion.   the idea of the knight - the christian in arms for the defence of a good cause - is one of the great christian ideas.   war is a dreadful thing, and i can respect an honest pacifist, thought i think he is entirely mistaken."

[later] dude, i'm on such a trip reading the website 4 the evangelical covenant church's magazine the covenant companion.   dude, the articles r so wise n' talk 'bout important, "relevant" issues!

[later] ¿ÀÈÄ: i went out in the rain to meet the beautiful kaela hwang in milpitas @ some strange chinese restaurant called zhao's hot pot that has "i love you little sheep" and "i'm hungry little sheep" writtn on the windows.   when she invited me onver the fon to join her there, she called the restaurant "i love you little sheep."   neway, she ordered the neuromien (beef stewe noodles) w/ wide noodles 4 herself n' the spicy hot pot noodles 4 me.   i got there just b4 the fud arrived.   my dish was a li'l weird w/ tons'f healthy animal parts/organs.   it only weirded me out a li'l cos i'm asian 'nuff to eat organs n' parts, no biggie.   i enjoyed the intestines n' tripe fine.   the liver pieces were a li'l strong in flavour n' the blood (¼±Áö) was more solid than what i was used to eating in ÇØÀå±¹ haejanggook.   i had had such a frustrating morning @ werk that i was very glad to drive thru the rain to eat animal parts.   kaela doesn't know how much i appreciated having lunch w/ her just now.   these r the kind'f mon morns that can really crush a man!   i refuse to gripe 'bout werk on my journal cos i value my job.

[later] "stupid, sexy flanders": sometimes i wonder if i'm 2 much'f a ned flanders.   sure i'm all wrapped up in church aktivities like ned flanders, but let's not consider that 2 much'f a bad thing.   however, sometimes, if u ask me, fladers has a hard time accepting his salvation thru jesus christ's crucifixion and worries 2 much 'bout legalistiks or buying his salvation thru deeds or aktions or behaviour.   i shouldn't be like that.   am i sometimes 2 much'f a goody.goody?   well, that's not my main concern 'bout being 2 much like ned flanders, tho'.   ned flanders bottles up his anger n' is just all grins n' chuckles n' "hi diddly ho there, neighborino" all the time, rt?   do i just bottle up my anger all the time?   seriously, i'm trying not to be a passive aggressive.   i'm also trying not to be a doormat.   in some episdoes, u c that ned's aktually very fit, very buff, n' very athletik.   yah, i wouldn't mind being those things.

now, where did i leave off updating u on my life?   i guess i left off w/ last wed.   lessee, on last tues nite, kaela tried so hard to cook us a wonderful dinner but ended up spilling it all on the hallway floor.   *sigh* that was sad. :-( wed nite, i think i cooked us dinner, didn't i?   or no?   hrm, maybe i'm thinkin' 'bout fri nite.   hrm, wed nite... i think i just ate leftovers by myself.   i ate leftovers from the wk's b4's dinner @ minato sushi as well as the previous sun's lunch @ û±â¿Í chunggiwa.   1 day last wk, i don't 'member which, i ate a sandwich 4 lunch from the werk.com cafeteria n' 'nother day i ate a salad from the werk.com cafeteria.   on thurs nite, after taekwondo sparring praktice, a bunch'f us went to eat @ ¿¾³¯ Â¥Àå yeitnal jjajang.   'twas a fun nite, n' i enjoyed socialising w/ the taekwondo guys.   kaela also came out w/ us.   i ate ¼è°í±â ººÀ½»¤, which comes w/ a side'f Â¥Àå jjajang n' a side'f «»Í ±¹¹° jjambbong gookmool.   'twas a great dinner, but i really should cut back on my eating!   lately, i've just let loose, let go; but i shouldn't.   on fri, i had free werk.com pizza (not very good) 4 lunch during some lunchtime seminar.   in the evening, after werk n' b4 going to grx t3 south couples small group by myself, i cooked some ¿ìµ¿ oodong @ home 4 kaela n' me.   that was decently tasty.   on my way home from small group, i stopped by the homestead, santa clara safeway to buy some gro¢eries such as organik ¿À·»Áö Á꽺 oreinji jyooseu, black olive hummus, honey ham, honey turkey, n' bananas.   @ safeway, there was this grp'f somewhat rowdy hi skool kids.   the guys were trying to look all the gangstaish, n' the gurls were basikally wearing nuthin' more than l!ngerie, walkin' 'round the store (like, some kind'f silk nightgownish, short dresses w/ garter belts... seriously/honestly, i didn't get a good look).   sure, it's all got this "shock value," n' the gurls were attrakting attention by dressing like that.   however, i heard these 2 safeway employee guys talkin'.   i'm sure the 1st guy sed sumpthin' like, "dude, look @ that."   i heard the other guy reply, "dude, i'm not gonna look @ that.   they're just kids.   what am i gonna do?"   i know what he means.   i knew what he meant.   like, sure these gurls r attrakting attention by showing flesh; but really, 'f what interest is that to me?   sure, i'm a guy, a hetero guy; but like... still, that's not'f interest to me, so i'm not gonna stop n' stare n' encourage that kind'f nonsense.   that brings me to a somewhat related topik: as i'm a guy, yah, if a pretty gurl walks by, in all honesty, yah, i might notice that the gurl is pretty.   however, there's no reason 4 me to dwell on it.   i'm a married man; n' in fakt, i've married a woman that u all know i believe is the most beautiful woman in the world.   i know other beauty exists in this world; but well... so it does.   what more would i say 'bout that, u know?   it's good that beauty exists in this world; n' if u ask me, we should all try to make this world a more beautiful place. "there he goes 'gain, that ned flanders!"

on sat morn after kaela left 4 her weekend chiropraktic class (she basikally has been going to chiropraktic classes 7 days a week these days), i took sooni 4 a jog 'round the neighbourhood.   then i drove to church (grx) n' skateboarded 'round that area 4 a while.   on sat, i started noticing sunnyvale police watching me so closely when i'm on my skateboard.   wow, this is such a life lesson 4 me: if ppl view me as a 30 yr.old asian.am engr, the cops won't watch me like this.   however, when ppl view me as some punk, counterculture skateboarder, the cops r watching my every move.   i noticed this - if i just roll by n' skateboard as if i'm doing it 4 transportation, it's not as bad as if i cm to be lingering in 1 spot trying to do tricks etc.   in dog.training, we have a phrase "four on the floor," which means that a well.behaved doggy has all 4 paws on the floor, thus he's not jumpin' all over the place or humpin' legs or nething.   well, it cms that "four on the floor" applies to skateboarders 2.   cops'll tolerate skateboarders better if we're just rolling on all 4.   if they c wheels leave the ground, then they'll suspekt that we're out to grind up precious architecture.   "skate and destroy" used to be a motto.   i'm slowly getting my ollie back, but i noticed on sat that i'm now wearing an ollie hole in my vintage style reebok sneakers.   altho' kaela cms to detest those shoes, i like'em; so i guess i'll go to designer shoe warehouse (dsw) n' buy a ¢heap pair'f skateboarding shoes sometime soon.   on sat morn, i werked @ grx, packing up stuff n' moving stuff out to p.o.d.s. (portable on demand storage).   it was good exercise.   'twas a dangerously sunny day.   i don't want skin cancer.   after moving stuff, i thought i'd go to cityteam ministries to help out w/ the bbq there to help feed hungry ppl.   well... i got lost on the way n' never made it.   instead, i went to the great mall to look 4 b.day persents.   i didn't find ne presents but ate a somewhat unhealthy lunch there @ some chinese or vietnamese owned japanese fast fud stand in the fud ct.   the fud was mediocre n' overpri¢ed.   i bought some huge combo meal cos it came w/ a free soda; but that was cos i didn't realise how big the combo meal was.   had i known, i would've bought sumpthin' smaller n' ¢heaper.   i had a yakitori skewer, some beef teriyaki, some steamed white rice, 2 ¸¸µÎ mandoo (gyoza), some chow mein, n' some steamed veggies .   i ate my lunch, trying to eat slowly 4 better health.   then i strolled 'round the mall but found no good gifts.   i noticed that abercrummy n' b!t¢h has decided to make a strong presence @ the great mall to funnel loose change out'f kids while pushing their racist, white suprema¢i$t agenda.   i also noticed lots'f asian.owned n' operated novelty stores that reminded me'f taiwanese nite markets.   not finding nething, i left the mall but walked into home depot to look 4 a ¢heap, small adjustable wrench to keep in my car 4 snowboard n' skateboard maintenance.   eh, they were out, so i wasted my time but $aved $$$.   the 6" adjustable wrench was $9.99.   dude, @ that pri¢ i might as well buy a specialised skateboard maintenance tool, sumpthin' like what used to be called a "skate key."   eventually, i'll need to clean n' lubricate my bearings.

well, kaela n' i were s'pposed to take grace n' ken out 4 their b.days on sat nite, but they cancelled on us n' reskeduled 4 sun nite.   after i came home from the great mall (it was hot outside!) i rested on the couch n' felt like i was really "taking a sabbath" 4 1nce.   god wants us to take a sabbath 1nce in a while.   i surfed the web 4 clips'f olympik snowboarding n' also 4 skateboarding videos.   wow, daewon song's amazing.   @ nite, i took kaela to dinner @ khanh's the contemporary vietnamese restaurant by valley fair.   then we went to amc mercado 20 to watch the pink panther.

[later] wow, i just found some lost journal entries from last dec: 2005³â12¿ù14ÀÏ~16ÀÏ.