화요일 아침: uhm, i just found out something very disturbing: i think i accidentally deleted my 2005 beno journal archive! i may have lost many, many journal entries. this is really bad news. i have some backup files of individual entries from throughout last year, but i may have permanently lost very much of what i wrote. this is very awful! *sigh* this all happened while i was setting up the directory for my current year's journal archive. *sigh* i believe the "recent" page is still intact, which is slightly relieving news because that will aid in the reconstruction of the archive. *sigh* you know how obsessed i am with documenting my life through my journal, so to lose some six months out of my life is really bad for me.
well, today is our nephew nolan's first birthday. i wish i could do more for him, but it's a tuesday. happy birthday, nolan.
last nite i came home kind of late because i worked later than i wanted to and then went to the company gym for a while. since i knew the beautiful kaela hwang's on her "detox diet," i was in absolutely no rush to come home since i knew we had no food to eat for dinner. i also wondered if she might have just gone out with her classmates for a beginning of the year party. however, i realized that, since she's on her detox diet, she probably wouldn't go out for dinner or drinks or anything like that. on my way home, i filled up my subaru's gas tank at costco with $2.179/gallon gas. yes, the price of gasoline has certainly shot up in the past few days. while i was fueling, kaela called and asked me to come home. when i got home, she was just watching t.v. i ate some microwaved leftover hot dog pasta and got on my computer to write yesterday night's journal entry and do some photo printing via shutterfly.com. kaela watched some lame movie with pierce brosnan and... is it julianne moore? i don't know and don't really care. i'm sure we had seen this stupid movie before. the two are divorce lawyers, and the plot is so contrived. then she started to watch some gay movie. i mean, it was literally about some homosexual guys. ugh, i didn't find it interesting or appealing at all. in fact, i found it very annoying. then, the worst case scenario... sex & the city? what? yeah, i guess sex & the city came on. dude, do you understand? that is very well perhaps my most hated t.v. show! let me list a few of my most hated t.v. shows.
now, why do i detest shows like e.r.? you would think that e.r. appeals to men as well as women, whereas the other three shows i named obviously target a female audience. i'm very sure e.r. does appeal to many men, just not me. sure, sometimes the plots are mildy interesting. however, one thing i hate about hospital shows is that they perpetuate the attitude amongst young people that they should aim to be healthcare providers solely to earn the right to have an attitude of "[singingly] i am so smart, much smarter than you" as their main goal as opposed to actually helping and caring for people. i've seen many college students puruse medical professions for the wrong reasons. too often, it's just for status. t.v. shows like e.r. encourage society to worship doctors like gods> i think some of these misguided kids that end up becoming doctors believe that they are gods, thinking, "i have the power to give and take away life.... furthermore, i get to see boobies all day. boobies, boobies, boobies." okay, you say that's ridiculous. sure, it's an exaggeration; but can we have shows about professions other than doctor, lawyer, cop, firefighter, soldier, businessman, politician, and actor? "beno, i know you want a show about engineers. dream on, you geek!" the closest thing we engineers get to a t.v. series about our profession is probably the various star trek series.
i know i've. . . [later] i forgot what i was going to say.
so often, i borrow or steal or whatever from superdave kim of starkdavingmad.com. here's a link to a cool usa today article that he put in his "vault": "New digital camera? Know how, where you can use it" by andrew kantor. while i'm stealing from other guys' blogs, let me point you towards another cool article that i got to from tim fong's unleashing fong: "let the good times roll: the top ten lies of entrepreneurs" by guy kawasaki. actually, this one's a blog entry.
[later] 저녁: last night, kaela also said she wants us to go on her school's snowtrip to heavenly, in south lake tahoe. in case you don't know, heavenly's one of my least favorite resorts because it is too tailored to skiers instead of snowboaders and is very expensive unless you can get ahold of those elusive albertsons discount tickets. as i have said in previous entris, kaela's school friends are good people, but i obviously lack and common bond with them, which leads to a bit of awkwardness. however, i then realized that, if i were to be arrogant, i could say to myself that i can pretty much kick anybody's butt in snowboarding, so i shouldn't care whether i fit in or not. of course, not being an arrogant guy, i wouldn't so much put it like that than like "since i'm decent at snowboarding, i at least can talk about snowboarding with these people that i otherwise don't have anything to talk about with" or something like that. if you read that guy kawasaki article i linked to above, then you might have seen some line like "wayne gretzky doesn't need to say, 'i'm a good hockey player.'" beno hwang doesn't need to say, "i'm a good snowboarder." nah, to put it into perspective though, honestly, when i compare myself to the young snowboard bums that actually live in tahoe and snowboard every single day, i'm not that great. although there have been times that i earned respect of people who otherwise weren't necessarily nice to me via my snowboarding skills, isn't that all kind of childish in a school playground way? anyway, more than because i think i put people in their places with my snowboarding skills, i guess i should go on this trip just because, as the "hardcore snowboarder" i am, i should board every chance i can get. let me tell you, i think some people have stopped asking to go snowboarding with me because i'm so arrogant about my snowboarding. yes, i realize well that i really need to shut up. didn't i read some quote on starkdavingmad like keep your words sweet in case you need to eat them?
*sigh* i need to reiterate my disdain over how i accidentally deleted my 2005 journal archive. wow, reconstruction will be a very unpleasant and unsatisfying experience!